As the title says, this weblog is about nothing in particular. I don't have some form of emergency this time, writing to ask for help. This isn't a call to arms over some situation. I'm simply writing because I have nothing else to do.
I'm unsure about this semester. I think I have bitten off more than I can chew here. Then again, what else is new when your life is controlled by a tyrranical father who feigns nice until you disagree with him? 17 hours in university is not a wise decision unless you have no friends and no hobbies. I have both, and it's nearly impossible to balance the time everything requires. Mathematically speaking, they say...what 2 hours of study for every hour in class? That would mean I'd be studying 38 hours a week outside the 19 hours per week I devote to class. That's more than a full time job, friends. I naturally require at least 7 hours of sleep per night. More if I want to be high-functioning. There are 168 hours in one week. At least 49 are spent sleeping. class takes up about 19 hours a week. Driving to and fro and errands takes about 10 hours per week. so already we're only left with 90 hours in a week that I can devote to studying. One hour a day is devoted to working out or doing something to benefit my body. 83 hours left. One or more days goes towards keeping my relationship alive, either seeing each other in person or chatting on the phone, so minus (conservatively) 24 hours there including travel time. Distance prevents us from seeing each other more frequently for less time per visit. 59 hours left. I'd say I spend about 30 minutes a day getting ready to go out somewhere, or getting ready to go to bed (gotta brush your teeth, shower and the like, ya know) so that's another 3.5 hours gone. 54.5 hours remaining. Cooking and eating occupies about the same amount of time, so another -3.5 gives us 51 hours in the bank. 5 hours a week goes to working in the hospital as an observer. 46 hours left. In between class time I can devote to studying, but it's only halfway effective since I'm in a fairly noisy environment and I'm usually a bit frazzled from my previous class. So 6 hours available, but only about 2 hours worth of study time is used. -4 useless time. 42 hours left. Household chores I'd estimate take about 5 hours a week, including laundry folding, vacuuming, cleaning, taking out the trash, etc. all those simple things. so 37 hours left. Checking email, taking surveys to earn some cash, and keeping up with online quizzes and homework costs about an additional hour per day, so minus 7 hours here. 30 hours left. I've already eaten into my study time eight hours, I'm getting a substandard amount of sleep, and I have had maybe an hour of free time to devote to things that I LIKE to get away and do, like go to the range, surf the web, or (god forbid) play a video game. One hour a week. Obviously, that's not happening, because I'm human and I lack discipline. So pull out an extra hour or two a day for that. -14 hours. That leaves me with 16 hours of study time. 16, when i should be getting 38. Noooo sir, that doesn't add up. Lets also assume I decide to get enough sleep for myself, or I get sick. minus another 7 hours a week. I'm now down to 9 hours of study time in a week. There's no way I can pass classes on that. There's no way I could pass classes if I cut out all my ME time and just studied during my free time, giving me 23 hours of study time.
The worst part about this is that I assumed two hours of study for every one hour in class. I have heard figures as high as 4 hours of study time per hour in class for harder subjects such as organic chem and calculus. All of my courses are high level courses that would require at the 4 hour mark a total of 19*4...76 hours of study outside of class. Including class time that would be 95 hours spent on school 95+49(basic seven hours of sleep) and you have 144 hours out of 168 hours. that would mean I would have 1 single day, only 24 hours a week to devote towards actually living life and doing basic needs like eating, hygiene, keeping my place neat, and transportation. That is not...just....no. This is the schedule that I have been forced into this year. I have allowed myself to be cornered.

*sigh* I need a vacation from everything.